taming unpredictable?

2011-12-31T11:44:00.000+09:00

Mama said,

You were born 19 years ago today, at 8.42pm, weight 3.3kg, length 19", circumference 13 half

I love you mom <3

2011-12-21T00:13:00.000+09:00

i'm feeling very sorry to many people. :(

2011-12-02T09:23:00.000+09:00

http://youtu.be/dTledrWQseY

Hi morning! :) Nothing much. i had a long night sleep last night but kept waking up and sleeping back. ugh. im glad it's still holiday. Oh uh, I was elected as one of the AJK for PPMK(basically means an organization for malaysian students in Korea). T.T I'm scared and honestly I don't wanna be commited. omg, it's like im getting married only hahaha. i don't think i can give much commitment bah. And then, the first meeting is on this saturday, which i have a concert to attend to... i know people said, it's not that serious or very berat job, but i just don't want. Yes, if accept this, means i have to (you know) give full commitment. No, i wanna focus in my first year (not saying that the other seniors can't focus) but i chose not to be involved :'( and i'm not saying that i dont wanna involved in building a better community. I just wanna support at the back as a normal ahli.ah, very burdensome. I don't know anything about ppmk. Huhu.. I am supposed to be happy that i got a position which not everybody can get. But i got a feeling that tonight's gotta be a good night tet tet tet~ oops, overdose. I got a bad feeling about this. My gawd, i feel responsible already.........

chasing pavement

2011-11-29T12:28:00.000+09:00

i was too bored then i decided to read through my past past PASSSSST posts in blogspot. wahahaha last time i was really diligent about writing a blog. but now, blah. My blog is officially dead. blaaahhhh You know what? I regret nothing in my life. *big smile* Yeah, sure I do wish this and that. but i never regret what i did, thinking back. I miss those times actually. and I am super glad that if i reminisce, i remember most of the happy times. actually, i didn't try to remember thos sad, angry times. yes, it tires my mind. oh phew~

Ok, so.... I don't wanna be childish anymore. Things have changed alot since the past 2 years. No wait, I mean THREE years. Back then, i never thought I'll be studying in South Korea and taking engineering course and blah blah blah. yeah, you know. And I never thought I could go to Girl's Generation's concert and met SHINEE backstage during Arirang TV'S Bravo asean competition. Oh, DID I MENTIONED I MET SHINEE AT THE BACKSTAGE???? MY GAWD. WE WERE LIKE 20~30CM AWAY? for real. *scream like a girl fan~~~:OOOOO*

*clears throat* ok, so what I wanna say is... from what i experienced in my whole life, i learnt alot. yes, very much. Sure many things changed, but many things remains the same too. For example, things that change is my weight. I gained like super weight since i graduated high school C: Yes, because my eating habit change and my body metabolism slows down since I reached maturity already. Yes, gawddamnit why do i have to stop growing in such an early age? blaaaaahhh what am i talking? I actually planned to talk about my life in Korea. Where the hallyu waves starts and where KPOP generations basically came from.

When I first came here, I knew only a bit about living away from my family. I used to wished that I study far away from my home because I never like to stay at home back when i was still a kid. Of course , that was before I know the importancy of family sticking together. Yes, I am a dork. It wasn't until recently I realized that I have such an imperfect but great family and wonderful parents. It wasn't until recently too that I realize what sacrifices mama n papa did for family and it wasn't recently that i LEARNT TO APPRECIATE MY FAMILY.
When I came here, I never cooked meat or fish-based dish. Everything starts from a scratch and I learnt to cook, to find my own way. To live like an adult but the same time living a child. Yes, I still look immature as i can be. When I come here, everybody tell me that I am 20 already and i past my teen years. But to me, im still 18 goin 19 this december. But anyway, what age I am in, it's still a number and i wanted to explore life more. I'm out of the topic again argh. I'll write again later. Maybe with pictures if I'm not too lazy , i guess. I don't know. I'm just too sayang to delete this blogs. It's a black and white yet environmental friendly documents that records my journeys. Not much but I just wanted to keep it. For me to read maybe when I grow old.

2011-09-13T23:53:00.000+09:00

hanged out in his crib again today. Did my homework, report, played games, nap, makan nasi. It took me many hours just to write one report. wtf. The games i played all got nasty languages, i think my language is becoming more rude too lately, i swear alot. Even though it's just for fun. :( Sia jadi jahat sudah... :(

2011-09-12T23:42:00.002+09:00

I'm back to gibber in this lousy blog. hi :). like anybody gonna greet me. pfft. i rather stay invicible. =="

Thanksgiving

2011-09-12T23:41:00.000+09:00

I had a great mooncake festival. which is called 'Chuseok' here, it's a thanksgiving festival, one of the big festival celebrated by Koreans. as you know, koreans dont have much holidays(unlike our country) because they are workaholic. haha. I mean, they are hardworking people. Like seriously, they really do they're job, you can feel their harworking-ness. I stayed up in Double D's house for the night before chuseok until chuseok's morning.(ok, u got me, I slept until 2pm. nice image u present there girl.) Thought gonna stay until late night only tiba2 kena suru stay over. They're not really well off that's why i feel comfortable. :) and they treat me warmly but not awkwardly. So yeah, I'm glad i met people like them. :) Had a big lunch with his father with homemade samgyetang and ssamgyeopsal. My gawd, I ate till my stomach wanna burst haha. But i feel so lame cuz I didn't helped much. instead i just ate n ate. n stay, drink their water, use their toilet,watch their tv, play his computer, watch movie and what i like the most is watched Superstar K3. OH YEAH! proud lah kau bikin susah orang lain? budu.

Like people said, "you have your ups, you will also have your downs". Was actually supposed to go for this special Chuseok festival thingy held in City hall for our Korean Class assignment. Take some pictures and write a report and send it via email to our teachers. But....when we reached there, there was nothing. NOTHING. asked my friends, it was postponed and there is another event inside the Palace. ok...*jalan jalan jalan.....* Reached the palace, but we were asked to go out because they are closing at 5pm. And i was like being a homo psychopatriac bitch saying, "WTF" repeatedly seriously fml. buruk oh kan perangai sia. Went there and came back empty-handed. Ruined my mood the entire ride home. But watever, i can just create a story in the report. ngeeeeheeeeee.But above all, I'm grateful he's there for me.

2011-07-11T19:11:00.000+09:00

It seems that I only have interests in writing when i feel down or uneasy or conscious about some aspect in my life etc. In some ways I've always wanted to express myself by writing. I probably will say I'm stupid to write these things when i re-read my blog in the future. Pouring out to people who are glad we have problems won't be doing any good. so why care to share? Blog is enough. I'm in pain. Pain. I feel useless. I feel painfully nowhere to go and no proper direction in my life. Thinking back, my life map have never been clear enough for me to really be certain of who i am and my place in this world. I don't know what i'm doing. I don't my purpose and worst, I'm constantly questioning,doubting and criticising my ownself. I don't feel like going back to the place we called home here. Instead i wanna go back to KK where i can hide in my room like I've always did last time. Now, i don't even have time for myself. I basically drag myself to go back home. If human doesn't need to sleep, i don't think i will step my foot in that house. I dreaded going there. Yeah, she makes noises, happily enjoying her time, when she's irritated she purposely chat loudly than usual during skype calls. I can't study, i cant sleep. Just kill me for good time sake. It's not that i mind sharing a room with someone. No, i dont mind. I'm totally find, but as friends(at first) we should respect each others personal space and time. What i mean is please please please dont go around video chatting 11pm, 12am,1am when it's time for people to sleep. you dont have to sleep but i do. I only call my parents in the bus during weekend so that i dont have to call them at home. and i only video call them when you're not around at home because im scared you might be disturbed by what you are doing at that moment.
Sigh.

Life, life is hard, the way everybody lived through it, everyday. I might looked very active and cheerful most of the times. Which i'm not sure if it's true or not. I dont trust people much, maybe because i dont trust my ownself. I hated my own existance in this world. "Why do I have to live?" "what's my point? my purpose?" "I can't do this, cant do that. I live here just to make sins and die" " If i'm not alive I might not have commited any sins at all, right?" so what's the p[oint??? I hope 1 day i'll find the answers to all of these. Lord, I believe in you yes I do. I've experienced things that proved you are here, you hear me, you look at me and you care for me,. But sometimes just sometimes, I need to see you. I need to hear you say to me, that everything is planned for me, you are gonna be alright. I'm here for you. I might not be listening well, that's why i can't seem to hear you talking to me. But for all these while, I thank you i have someone to look upon when i have nobody to lean on. And I've learnt that you sent people around me to teach me lessons on life and i think that's your own way of showing your existance. I'm glad and thankful

I'm so emo, why did I never feel good in everything I do? I never feel good in study, never feel good about my appearance, never feel good of my actions. And eventhough my lips says I feel good, deep inside i'm never 100% sure of myself.

I dont know. I dreaded living like this. I wanna be someone, someone that someone can look up to. someone who will say that they miss me when i'm not around. someone who says that they are happy being around me.

But somehow i feel especially extremely down today :[

2011-06-14T22:03:00.003+09:00

Hey there,i dont know what to say. So bye. Just filling this post with craps. omg, gibbering much?

2011-05-01T23:01:00.000+09:00

왜 요즘 갑자기 자신이 없어? 휴... 나는 원래 성격이 밝은데~ 아 어떻게, 다시 depression 기간이야?? 그걸 정말 싫은데. 나는 정말 정말 이 셰상에 있고 싶지 않다-그런 생각. 어떻게.... 아마 집에 가기 싫어서 그래. 집이 문제 때문에가 아니고 그냥 같이 사는 사람이 성격이 아이스..성격이 ㅠㅠ 아 답답해.

2011-03-27T11:18:00.002+09:00

Life's full of shits but you gotta live like dung beetle :D :D
Hahaha

I'm leaving tonight~!

2011-02-24T16:00:00.000+09:00

I'm leaving tonight, will be boarding the 11.30pm flight to Incheon, South Korea. Bye2 Sabah! Kota Kinabalu, i'll miss you so much! >.<
I think mixed feeling is normal. I pray that God will help and bless us. Amen.

2011-02-20T09:22:00.000+09:00

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire, sooner or later

I get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

The truth is a stranger, soul is in danger

I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on

And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back, got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you

Sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could stop

Admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I've gotta be strong

And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back, got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

There's still a part of me in you

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything I do

Can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back, got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Can't waste time so give it a moment

I realized nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back, got a new direction

I loved you once and I needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you

Sorry this post is mainly in Sabahan BM.

2011-02-19T22:19:00.000+09:00

Sorry this post is mainly in Sabahan BM.

3 more days in KK. :( Tomorrow going to Papar for farewell dinner.

Flying to Incheon on 24th at 11.30pm. Somehow, i wish i could stop the time. Please please please. Everything is too fast now. Tadi saya pigi kampung papa, macam entah berapa tahun sudah sa tidak balik tu.. sana kg,putaton, inobong bah. Bukan juga jauh.. Sa pigi jumpa ina(nenek), aunty2, uncle2 saya.. huhu. Sedih saya tingu ina tua sdh, lemah sdh badan dia.. au nogii nokongou, mato pun au tarang nodii kokito ka.. aikya, betul kah kadazan sia ni.. entahlah saya hantam saja, belajar melalui pendengaran n penglihatan saja gia ni aiso(tiada) proper education. Cepat oh masa berlalu..

Here I wanna wish everybody good health, good life, and god bless you. Take good care of yourself and be happy. I love u guys! <3 <3

2011-02-15T01:26:00.000+09:00

It's gonna be 9 more days... I kinda feel sad. I'm gonna miss this place. I don't wanna go, I'm scared of living there alone. But on the other side, I'm thrilled to be in a new place. Talking about mixed feelings. It kinda sucks, I wished I know exactly one type of feeling that I'm having and deal with it. Ugh..what? I know, it's not logic. wtff, windows sa mana pg?? hmm. Oh, Happy Valentine's Day people. ^^ Wish u all the love everyone can have! <3 <3 <3 I'm gonna put one thing aside, soon time will heal.. Yeah, i guess. It's just something impossible, I know, we know, it's impossible., Don't say about changing ur faith, I know alot about cases like that, in the end, it's still the same. It's impossible.. Rather than continue hurting each other again and again, you've made the right choice :) Oh damn, I can talk about this on and on.. Bet you'll yawn here and thinking, what am i saying? well, ignore this.
I'm scared of going abroad but this doesn't mean I don't want what I'm pursuing. I've chose this, this is what I am gonna do. THIS. Rach, think straight..yes, focus.

2011-02-12T12:50:00.002+09:00

OMG :O
I haven't start preparing :C and my computer is at risk because the windows is not genuine? ekekekeke.. stupid but funny. but what should i do? I forgot where to backup my stuff and all. aaaaaah~~

2011-02-08T14:29:00.000+09:00

CORRECTION.

Pn Jen's call = still bad news.

No call = good news.

So, I didn't get any call from anyone regarding on my studies yesterday. Does this means a hurray?? It's so weird. hurmmm
But anyways, all my friends didn't get the call so I guess "CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE!" hahaha :D
Start packing now? I don't think so.. maybe after attending the pre-departure meeting then I'll think about packing. Winter coats? ugh. I'm excited but somehow anxious. I can't believe I'm gonna be university student.
MY PLANS
-just enjoy my life like there's no tomorrow.

2011-02-06T01:51:00.000+09:00

Leanne's makeup.

Cheap frame, 대훈 오빠's sweater.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :3

I'm surprised this year's CNY celebration is not as happening as last times. hmmm

The day after tomorrow is our result day!! gaaaaah. :O

It's either Pn Jen or JPA.

Long story short, if Pn Jen - bad news.

JPA- good news.

I got a feeling that I'll be getting Pn Jen's call. ㅠㅠ

2011-02-03T22:04:00.001+09:00

It is not how much we do, but how much love we put in the doing. It is not how much we give, but how much love we put in the giving." Mother Teresa

"It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart." Ghandi

It's funny how I only turn to God when bad things happened or because I have fear etc.. Looking back, I'm really a jerk myself. Maybe because it's an involuntary action from the things that happened to me? no, i don't want to put any blame on anyone. This time, yes, i acknowledge my faults, my wrongs. I am a real jerk. I feel so sorry towards him, I am really sorry. I'm not asking anything, just sorry for the times when I hurt him with my words and action. just because I'm confused, I pulled him along. I'm sorry. Thanks for being there for me whole the time. Really thank you.

2011-02-03T21:54:00.000+09:00

남자 친구랑 헤어졌다. 슬픈데.. 괜찮아. 레이첼,생각하지맙시다. 혼자 행복해도 돼.
I'm sorry. My weaknesses caused you pain. I'm the bad guy here, yes I am. I'm sorry. Live your life kay? To the fullest and be happy with everything. I didn't regret any single moment but I guess this is the best. We are still young. go, and live your dreams, find and catch one if you still don't have. :) I don't want anything in return. Just be happy because I am really thankful for everything you did for me in the past. If you need help or anything, just find me and i'll try my best to help you. by the way, YOU ROCK sunshine!! ^^

2011-02-03T13:00:00.001+09:00

I think I can't upload much picture here cuz blogger is so slow in this field. hehe. or is it my internet connection? well btw, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

2011-01-28T01:10:00.000+09:00

시험이 끝났다! EXAM IS OVER!!

woooooooohooooooooo^^
No words can describe this feeling. only pictures i guess??? heehee...
But still, there's the result.. which will determine whether i will fly or not. hmmh..

2011-01-19T00:30:00.000+09:00

I'm always checking the price ticket in airasia.com and malaysiaairlines.com

I scared JPA will tell a last minute date for our pre-depature meeting. gah, byk kos lah!!
Let's pretend if I passed the cut off point --------------

Need to attend for pre-departure meeting maybe in KL or Shah Alam (after Chinese New Year) so, i need to fly to West Malaysia and back to KK just for a-day meeting. And then, hujung bulan February, I need to go to KLIA from KK just to get on the plane to SEOUL. because we need to be in a batch. hmmh!
I don't know.. Maybe, just maybe if i passed.

If I can't pass, I'm opting for politeknik for Quantity Surveyor! Bye2 science ody. hahahahaha !!

I don't know. I'm confused. Berbelah bagi, takut menyusahkan orang dan buat orang kecewa. hmmh

2011-01-16T11:13:00.001+09:00

I SUCK AT CONTROLLING MY FEELINGS

2011-01-15T16:29:00.000+09:00

The things I hate the most in 2000..2004, 2007... 2009... 2010.. 2011 still hating :-
1. I hate slow internet connection .fy.
2. I hate being fugly.
3. I hate when I can't sleep
4. I hate to get frustrated when I can't understand what I'm studying and the clock is ticking.
5. I HATE SLOW INTERNET CONNECTION! D;<

I can't do anything because I subscribed this sleazy i.connection for 5 months n I've got only 15 days here. gah. I'M STRESSED.

스트레스를 받았다!

2011-01-15T02:47:00.000+09:00

I am downloading Dream High now! woots! haha. :DDDD

Miss A's Suzy is acting in this drama that's why I wanna watch. :P

Dream High!!! ^^

16 episodes
Synopsis
This is the story of youths becoming top global stars which could take place in the not-so-distant future.
You may have the looks, talent, personality and even a respectable private life, but it's still tough to rise as a successful star. Here is a group of youths who are still up for this daring challenge.
They all have a single weakness barring them becoming the ultimate top star. The weaknesses wouldn't be an issue or an inconvenience to an ordinary person, but they are detrimental to a pop star.
One girl sings superbly but her appearance is not the best to stand before the TV camera.
Another student has the looks and musical talent but has a distorted, prejudiced view of the world.
There are others who have amazing talent but an unsophisticated fashion sense.
Each of these students have managed to pass the exam and enter Kirin Arts High School to begin headlong the challenge of becoming a top superstar.
The characters maximize their unique talents and overcome their weaknesses.
They fall, trip and fail which only boosts their confidence.
The ridicule and scorn they are used to will one day turn into cheers and support.
The underdogs and the losers will fly up high and their story will be an inspiration to young viewers.

UPTOWN SHAH ALAM SECTION 24

2011-01-15T02:08:00.000+09:00

just being a camwhore. it's been a long time.

Today we went to UPTOWN Shah Alam Seksyen 24.

erm. it's kinda the uptown thing in Damansara. There's alot of stuff you can see but from my opinion, it's not that big and much stuff. Basically they sell alot of clothing.

and SHOES

and BAGS.

and masks, costumes and stuff

it's actually a magic shop. :P

baju grey: ui,ko mau bili kah tu?

baju cukulat: nda lah. sa tingu2 saja bah ni. mcm smart tp mahal.=="

hahaha. seriously the masks are expensive lah. but i think can bargain waa.

The place is also equipped with kedai makan. which sells shisha. hoho,ya u can get shisha here,

HERE. :)

And then after jalan2, we pushed our friend to sing a karaoke song on the stage.

This is a digi stage where u can pick any song and sing (doing ur own concert)

RM3-1 song

RM5-2 songs

the rest i dk

it's really fun cause it's a real stage.

Si baju cukulat. namanya ad. :)

I hate slow internet connection >:C

There's more about Kota Kinabalu Last Christmas holiday.. hmmh. :/

Slow wifi, "******@#%$@%$#^? encik iq***, pls lah fix your wifi connection here in KOLEJ CEMARA. we paid u worh.

2011-01-09T12:50:00.002+09:00

hehehehe.. Again! comeeeeeeyyyy :3

2011-01-09T10:47:00.001+09:00

I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF THIS!!! :D

SINCE TUMBLR IS ALWAYS DISPLAYING 'WE'LL BE BACK SHORTLY', I CAN'T TAHAN MY FINGERS TO POST THIS CUTE MV!

GO SECRET!!!! I'M YOUR FAN NOW ;P

2011-01-09T10:41:00.001+09:00

Don't give up.....

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

Heavens door open this morning, God asked me... My CHILD...

what can I do for you?" and I said "Daddy please protect and bless the one reading this message.

God smiled and answered ..... "request granted ............

~have a nice day~

I COPIED PASTE FROM MY FRIEND IN FACEBOOK ASH ANN. :)

2011-01-06T19:14:00.000+09:00

This is what I hate when you do things in a group. Uggh, when people doesn;t understand that your job as a member is to make sure everything goes right AND to help as much as possible so that you can get high marks. It's not me that's getting high marks if our assignment get high marks ok?? US! geez, please lah. I'm just giving ideas so that we fulfilled the requirements. And get a slightly higher marks than average. Don't you want so?? This is our final month! Final sem! And the marks are so important bah. ingin saja sa memaki kalau bkn sa punya azam baru. brr. can't you think better?

sigh. people are people's own enemy :/

2011-01-05T20:59:00.000+09:00

so much things that are impossible during highschool can happen during your college days.

Us, as in the whole batch of Korean Technical Programme batch 11 went to midvalley just to watch a korean movie - BLOODY CAMP : DEATH BELL 2. for our Korean Culture class. How cool is that? heeeee :P

This is the life!

Our Korean lecturer?? cantik kan???????

That's our ticket ^^

우리는 오늘 정말 잘됐다!

2011-01-03T02:40:00.000+09:00

Woot! Again, there's a batch of korean studdents from dongyang mirae came to intec today! Waaa, I'm so tired oh. haven't sleep and it's already morning, tomorrow got class again. omygah!
But anyways, maybe I can't enjoy much already, we must fight for the final!!!! ugagaga! :D

I know he love me.

2010-12-30T23:21:00.000+09:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAVE A BLESSED NEW YEAR!

FIND AND HOPE EVERYONE BE ABLE TO FOLLOW THEIR OWN NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS! ^^

since tumblr is making a big scene by displaying 'error', I guess I'll just post a before-new-year's post here. So far, I'm loving everything although some things doesn't go with the plan :P

Thank GOD fur everything!

I have received a present from the most important person. :D and i'm lovin it!

I'm turning 18! woohooooooooiiiiiiiii

I know you love me

hehehehehe ^o^

Ok , ready? so here;s my new year's resolution. Actually I haven't think about it yet but after watching Michelle Phan's new year's resolution..* whisper: go here ------->>>>>"*http://www.youtube.com/user/MichellePhan#p/u/0/J0N3OD2B9a4.yeah, *rolling* Imma copycat. :()

2011:

1. TRY and TRY TRY MY BEST!!

2. Work more on my maths and physics. Extend my studying hours in a day.

3. Maximum of only 3 hours of online-ing.

4. Be a better person. Especially towards my parents.

5. Stop cursing. 'shit' is ok. *wink

That's all I can think of right now. It's gonna be hard but look at number ONE. *Point up*

^^V

2010-12-30T19:53:00.002+09:00

Glitterfy.com - Photo Flipbooks

OOHHH..INILAH KAMU BUAT DI KAMPUNG AH.

pissed off

2010-12-23T19:26:00.002+09:00

I'm so pissed off today. anyways, i planned to forget about it cause it's christmas!

BUKIT BINTANG SUNGEI WANG

2010-12-20T00:42:00.000+09:00

AAAH! I'M SO TIRED TODAY. WALKED ALOT. WENT TO BUKIT BINTANG N SUNGEI WANG FOR CHRISTMAS SHOPPING. EVENTHOUGH WE SHOPPED THE WHOLE DAY I STILL THINK I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME. THERE ARE SOME THINGS I HAVEN'T BUY YET. :'C HONEY,SA X SEMPAT BELI BAJU FOR YOU......
BUT, I DID ENJOY MY TIME THERE! WOOTS 3 MORE DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!

2010-12-18T10:59:00.000+09:00

Happy Saturday C:

3 more days for holiday

hi. I just finished my pure maths test.

2010-12-17T20:40:00.000+09:00

go http://www.allkpop.com/2010/12/snsd-wins-music-bank-overall-k-chart-for-2010-other-performances/.

^^ v

Oh yeah. I just finished my pure maths test. It's f**king incredibly difficult. Well, at least for me, because I'm lame. Uggh, why can't think maths like them?

I'm already dead halfway during the test. garn! Being in college, pre u, u is so different! hmmh.

Oh yeah!! COUNTDOWN : 4 more days to go. HELLO KOTA KINABALU. :P

Merry Christmas in ADVANCED.

woo! Just came back from Penang

2010-11-27T02:27:00.001+09:00

OMG :O
It's been a looooooooooong time I neglected my blog. I'm so sorry bloggie. I don't have time :/
I actually went to Penang! PULAU PINANG!
Pictures? Maybe facebook.
My blog is still under construction :)

2010-09-25T00:43:00.000+09:00

I don't need anyone to tell me i'm a student. A lame one at that again! :P
I'm so scared for the finals. I wanna die oooh! hmm. Everytime, I'm down or what I'LL look at my handphone and plan to text him but I didn't cause I don't wanna bug him. Just thinking about him give a boost that I need. erm,ok? haha. Yup, I did pray. And I found myself praying alot these days. I really liked it how I feel close to God again. There's so much conflicts within myself...
Sighs, I just wished we wouldn't have this crisis in our relationship...
But, I'm gonna be positive all the time. I'm trying. what? I'm always talking about abstract thing. sigh.

Bye KK as in Kota Kinabalu. okay...

2010-09-19T01:11:00.000+09:00

oooo..bak kut teh. nyum nyum.

My holiday in KK was super productive. woot2! but, as my friend, Ralph said, "productive holiday, unproductive student." I didn't study like crazy. Aaah, my brain hurts just by mentioning 'study'. Ouch.
Everything in my to-do list during the holiday is checked. :P I freakin' love this!
Oh yeaahhh.. I'm so gonna miss Sabah. let alone Kota Kinabalu. My home, my hometown. my paradise. Hah! take that.

Now, I'm going to fight till I die. not really, haha. I'm going to burn my eyes till it burn, LATER at hostel. IF, IF I am that self'disciplined. That would be great. brrrrr =__________=

I didn't get to see him today or yesterday. But at least we spent time the day before yesterday. I'm still bad at driving manual. Good thing he tidak marah2. haha. Whenever we go,we both fighting ok??! I know you'll be reading my blog also. wakakaka. :D

It's like a personal but public writing bah this blog. Whatever lah. I really should take my butt off from this chair and offline now. I'm going on the Airasia, uggh, kin panas punya Airasia in less than 10 hours. My gawd, I really don't wanna go back. I don't wanna be a student anymore. hmmm.... I wish things will be easier. But, like he said, I'm strong!! oh yeah. BITCH.that's how we do it. I can do this!! I know! *buat gaya org jepun ikat kain d kepala*

Ok, so... Cemara, Intec, Al-Rafi, ,Mydin, Ole-ole... I'll be seeing you tomorrow. :P

Btw, go listen Endless Love bah. yang by Lionel Richie tuuu... super cute song.

Bye KK as in Kota Kinabalu. okay...

2010-09-19T00:58:00.000+09:00

2010-09-17T19:16:00.000+09:00

A new beginning for both of us. If I'm not mistaken, 11.09.2010 right? :3
I love u biatch. :)
Oh man, I'm going back to Shah Alam this Sunday. I don't know... I got so many reasons I didn't wanna go back. first of all, of course I didn't study like maniac during the holiday!! AAAAAAaaaargggh!! I'm sure gonna fail. shyt, oh shyt. Second, I will miss my hometown and my friends and my boo and the time I spent so carelessly no need to study. huh! Third, I'm so gonna miss driving! Fourth, I don't wanna do my own laundry. oh dude, I hate doing laundry. Fifth, I don't wanna go back cuz I always find myself the most stupid person there. And sixth! My hair is short! I didn't know how to go back there without looking ugly. :C I'm already ugly. I just wish my babe will be there. Oh, I'm changing my url soon.! :D

New spirit! new spirit! I'm gonna throw all these negative energy and turn into positive thing! :P
boom boom, POSITIVE!! I can do it! Yes, I can!

I'm stressed. lepaskan stress.

2010-09-11T16:38:00.000+09:00

I'll get stressed out when i already planned my time properly and tiba2 something will came up disrupting my plan. and also i get stressed when people push me too hard, and also i get stressed out when the things that im supposed to do i can't do. I hate myself!

DE-STRESS
As Richie stared at his cellphone,
REMINDER: Sunshine's birthday
His eyes were teary.. That reminder were set 4 years ago. Even during those cold Christmas and his lonely birthday,sunshine, will still he keep it. He knows how she feels towards him. He knows he's losing her for sure. For the battle ahead will keep them apart. She didn't promised a fair battle nor will she hold on when things get hard. All she ever said is, she doesn't care what lies ahead. For all his might, deep down, he wishes to be with her though there are a big reason, a boulder, they can't be together. He's first, she's the reason he chose to major in Engineering. Abandoning his own dream so that he can realize her dream for her......

hye guys! :D

2010-09-05T17:08:00.001+09:00

Yea,im back in KK. Can't wait to celebrate hari raya and meet all my friends. woot woot!
But the sad thing is that I got bad marks for my korean.. grrrrr!!!! i hate myself.
anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIT DAN BATIN.

YEAH!!!! IM GOING BACK TO SABAH

2010-09-03T09:08:00.001+09:00

OH YEAH!!! KK, WAIT FOR ME !!
KEKEKE ^^

HELP ME.

2010-08-22T18:29:00.003+09:00

God help me. I feel so helpless in studies these days. I just cannot catch up. I need you....

I miss my papa

2010-08-21T02:18:00.000+09:00

I always remember the times when I still live on with the habit of sucking baby bottle(6-8 years old), I will always lie on my papa's lap while enjoying my milo in the bottle + watching tv. My dad will shake his leg and I enjoyed those moments.

I actually cried while reading this. I miss my dad so much.. Good thing my roommates are not here..keke. My tears can't stop flowing. I miss my dad!

I understand how my dad feels. I've seen him during his sensitive moments. My dad is the best. Whenever I do badly in anything especially in my study, he never get mad at me. Instead, he always give me advises, positive advises. And tell me to try again. He always says that it's normal to face difficulties. He is always concern about me eventhough I'm not staying at home anymore. He doesn't ask much but always when he calls me, the first question will be "macam sudah ko d sana?" (how are you there?") That question never fails to bring tears in my eyes. I know he cares about me. I love you papa. I didn't say this always but I do. And when he give advise, I always say 'bah' as an indication that I don't wana hear it anymore. The fact is, I feel touched. It's not that I don't want to hear. I just don't want to burst into tears while my dad is still on the line. I don't want to let him see or hear that I'm sad or anything. In fact, I'm crying right now.. :') It's just that, I want my dad to see his daughter as a strong and independent child. My dad is the one who always believes in me. My dad misses me, I know.. :P

When I entered matrix, eventhough Labuan is not that far, my dad is the one to worry about me. Of course, my mum do worry about the details but my dad believes in me. and he know that I can survive. I'm a survivor.

got this from facebook.

Yang Tidak Bisa Diucapkan Oleh Ayah..

by HaiYa Fikr on Sunday, August 8, 2010 at 2:10pm

Biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja diperantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri,yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya...Akan sering merasa rindu sekali dengan ibunya..Lalu bagaimana dengan AYAH?

Mungkin kerana ibu lebih sering menelefon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari, tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata ayah-lah yang mengingatkan ibu untuk menelefonmu?

Mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, ibu-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng, tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sekembalinya ayah dr bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah ayah selalu menanyakan pada ibu tentang khabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

Pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil.Ayah biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik basikal .Dan setelah ayah mengganggapmu sudah boleh menunggangnya, ayah akan melepaskan roda bantu di basikalmu .Kemudian Ibu bilang : "Jangan dulu ayahnya, jangan ditanggalkan dulu roda bantunya", itu kerana ibu takut puteri manisnya akan terjatuh lalu terluka....

Tapi sedarkah dikau?Bahwa ayah dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu
mengayuh basikal dengan seksama kerana dia tahu puteri kecilnya PASTI mampu melakukannya.

Pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta alat permainan yang baru, ibu menatapmu hiba.Tetapi ayah akan mengatakan dengan tegas : "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang" Tahukah kamu, ayah melakukan itu kerana ayah tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi.

Saat kamu ditimpa sakit , ayah lah yang terlalu khawatir sampai kekadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata : "Sudah di beritahu! kamu jangan minum air sejuk!".Berbeza dengan ibu yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut.Ketahuilah, saat itu ayah benar-benar mengkhuatirkan keadaanmu..

Ketika kamu sudah beranjak muda remaja..Kamu mulai menuntut pada ayah untuk mendapat keizinan keluar malam, dan ayah bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".Tahukah kamu, bahwa ayah melakukan itu untuk menjagamu?Kerana bagi ayah, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa
berharga..Setelah itu kamu marah pada ayah, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu...

Dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan memujukmu agar tidak marah adalah ayah.Tahukah kamu,bahwa saat itu ayah memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya, Bahwa ayah sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, Tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang teman lelaki mulai sering menelefonmu, atau bahkan datang ke rumah untuk menemuimu,ayah akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia.... :') ayah sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang berbuall berdua di ruang tamu..Sedarkah kamu, kalau hati ayah merasa cemburu?

Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan ayah melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya.Maka yang dilakukan ayah adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khuatirdan bimbang.Dan setelah perasaan khuatir itu berlarut - larut.Ketika melihat puteri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati ayah akan mengeras dan memarahimu..Sedarkah kamu, bahwa ini kerana hal yang di sangat ditakuti ayah akan segera datang? "Bahwa puteri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkannya"

Setelah lulus SPM, Ayah akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Doktor atau Engineer. Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan ayah itu semata - mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti.Tapi ayah tetap tersenyum dan menyokongmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan ayah.

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa.Dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain.ayah harus melepaskanmu di bandar.Tahukah kamu bahwa badan ayah terasa kaku untuk memelukmu? Ayah hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasihat ini - itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati.Padahal ayah ingin sekali menangis seperti ibu dan memelukmu erat-erat.Yang ayah lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".Ayah melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT....kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu kesempitan wang untuk membiayai perbelanjaan semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah ayah. Ayah pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya boleh merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain.Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekadar meminta alat mainan yang baru, dan ayah tahu ia tidak mampu memberikan apa yang kamu inginkan...

Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Ayah adalah : "Tidak.... Tidak boleh!" Padahal dalam batin Ayah, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan "Iya sayang, nanti ayah belikan untukmu".Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu Ayah merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu berjaya sebagai seorang sarjana. Ayah adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu.Ayah akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat "puteri kecilnya yang
tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang" Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada ayah untuk mengambilmu darinya.Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin..Kerana Ayah tahu.....Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti.

Dan akhirnya....

Saat ayah melihatmu duduk di kerusi pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang di anggapnya mampu menggantikannya, Ayah pun tersenyum bahagia..Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu ayah pergi kebelakang pentas pelaminan sebentar, dan menangis? Ayah menangis karena ayah sangat berbahagia, kemudian ayah berdoa....Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Ayah berkata: "Ya Allah tugasku telah selesai dengan baik....Puteri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita solehah yang cantik....Bahagiakanlah dia bersama suaminya...rahmatilah kehidupan mereka Ya Allah"

Setelah itu Ayah hanya mampu menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk...Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih....Dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya....Ayah telah menyelesaikan tugasnya....Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita...Adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat...Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis...Dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu.Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU MAMPU" dalam segala hal..

Ana mendapatkan notes ini dari seorang sahabat, dan mungkin ada baiknya jika ana berkongsinya kepada sahabat-sahabat ana yang lain.Yup, banyak hal yang mungkin tidak bisa dikatakan Ayah / Bapak / Papi kita...tapi setidaknya kini kita mengerti apa yang tersembunyi dibalik hatinya.

2010-08-20T19:29:00.000+09:00

Playing Wii during korean culture class. ~.^

i look damn fat here.

anyway, today we had maths test. The test was killing me slowly. I still feel the effect until now.

I think I'll get 0%.

sighs. I just dont wanna think about it.

is it over? I'm sorry.

2010-08-20T00:24:00.002+09:00

Let it go.. let it go
For the time has passed
and the tide is low;
Let it go..
for the wind had blown
the flame
between us.
Still, I keep my promise abt the 8 yrs later..

Demonstrative Speech

2010-08-17T22:42:00.000+09:00

*fuh* Today was..how can I explain.. urm
"interesting" ?
We had this subject FSC (Fundamental Speech Communication) which is like a speech class or toastmaster thingy. We basically need to do all the speech 'goodly' because it carries marks and it contributes what about 6-7% to our cgpa. Sighs. Ok, I know this is to help students to build up their confident and blah blah blah... But, I'm not that type of person that loves to speak in front. Kukururu..I'm shy bah. =_=

Oh, I did my demonstrative speech today. It was kinda lacking bits of here and there i think. I didn't know that my teacher will call me to be the first to present. Tell you, I felt like everything in my eyes fell down at that time. I shouted and it was damn embarassing.
And I did this topic about Sumazau Dance and I taught them about the dance. Haissh, long story short. I think I did badly. Ya, I do took pride in my race's dance but then I'm so..I don't know. Just...shy i guess.

AAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH! I wanna do my speech again!
I did terribly and I'm so not ready just now!!! :(
다시한번!!!! omona

BUSSSSSSYYYY AGAIN :(

2010-08-15T18:39:00.000+09:00

Life is really packed these days. grr.!

But anyway, we managed to go to our lecturer's house. Had real blast of time!

Now, I gotta go. heee :P

lotsa assignment to do.

Lisa and Me. -.-

life's packed

2010-08-07T11:01:00.000+09:00

I'm so BUSSSSSSY!

It's a saturday but i have tons of things to do.. Semester 1 is ending soon. And we'll start 2nd level of korean language. It's getting harder and harder each day but it's still the best subject compare to Physics, Pure Maths, Chemistry, FSC(Fundamental speech and communication) and Ethics. Fuh!

Even my blog has become simpler and simpler these days. I just don't have time to do anything. Hmmh! So much unsettled stuff to do.

Fuuuuh..these are the times where i feel time its just like dust blown by the wind..

Well, whatever it is. Keep a positive attitude!

Amen

2010-08-04T21:56:00.000+09:00

I lost a good friend today, after spending a month on the hospital bed fighting for her life from kidney failure.. I pray that God may guide her soul and bless her soul. I'm so sad I can't be there even to pay the last respect for her. I will always cherish the time we had together. I'm sorry we didn't spent time well in the past but she had always been a great friend to all. May she rest in peace. I love you dear Chin Lee Kee.. Your memory will always stay in my heart.
Chin, now you can rest.. no more pain. :')

2010-07-13T21:51:00.001+09:00

샤워하고 싶어 XD

2010-07-02T22:28:00.000+09:00

I will stop caring if thats what you want. i don't have the rights to care anyway. It's not that im mad but im concerned about your health. :/

somewhere out there......................

2010-07-01T22:29:00.003+09:00

"Saya tdk pun"
"Mau juga kami explain kah?"
ouch..*stab my jantung guna pencil*
tsk tsk tsk T.T

2010-07-01T22:28:00.001+09:00

"Saya tdk pun"
"Mau juga kami explain kah?"
ouch..*stab my jantung guna pencil*
tsk tsk tsk T.T

2010-06-28T21:43:00.000+09:00

I still feel teary when I talk to my parents and realise that they are concerned about me.

Happy Father's Day!! :)

2010-06-20T11:18:00.000+09:00

As I grew older , I learn to appreciate my parents more and more. Especially now, in my condition that I'm far from them, I miss them alot. ptui,seberang laut ja pun. hehe. XD

Anyhow, I want to wish my Papa a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY :D

Happy Father's Day

A Dad is a person
who is loving and kind,
And often he knows
what you have on your mind.
He's someone who listens,
suggests, and defends.
A dad can be one
of your very best friends!
He's proud of your triumphs,
but when things go wrong,
A dad can be patient
and helpful and strong
In all that you do,
a dad's love plays a part.
There's always a place for him
deep in your heart.
And each year that passes,
you're even more glad,
More grateful and proud
just to call him your dad!
Thank you, Dad...
for listening and caring,
for giving and sharing,
but, especially, for just being you!
Happy Father's Day

2010-06-18T19:38:00.002+09:00

guess that the only thing that will be there for me is only mr.teddy.

2010-06-18T18:24:00.002+09:00

i don't wanna close my eyes.

no more big photo.

2010-06-18T17:55:00.003+09:00

I'm here for a month now. INTEC,UiTM. 8 more cramped months to go. I just can't wait for September to come. I still wanna go to your house for Hari Raya.

Why does this hurt so much?? Why can't it be easy?? People asked me about you, I will make out a happy face and answer them truthfully like it doesn't affect me at all. I'm dying inside. Ugh,life sucks. But nevermind, let's give it a test.

Being here is a lot different then staying in Sabah. For whole my life I've been staying with my parents and adapted a certain habit. Now,I'm not staying with my parents anymore. I suddenly feel that I miss them and all the things that I thought I won't miss at all when I was still in Sabah. Personal stuffs are hard to adapt here but I'm here to strive. I know they are rooting for me. :D And I know bekbek too. Knowing that, it's enough to continue. I can continue with a bit of love.And I'll upgrade the love. o.O

.'Seek first to understand then to be understood.'

-'Serve first then to be served.'

And then, being in a pre-U place, is a lot different from high school. 200% different! It's fun at the same time.

sighs. I'll strive through this!!! yo bu, both of us fighting!

My favourite subject here is Korean Language & Culture Class. haha. tidak stress boss.

no matter what, lets keep a positive attitude and bright personality to the end. =)

dulu kecil2, adik saya sangat kiut.

honey, i want the best for you. i want to see u're happy and contented with ur life =)

2010-06-12T02:51:00.000+09:00

Psalm 67:1-2
May God be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.

There's no one else like you. You are the one that i love. I thank god each and every day for giving you to me. for sending you to me. please don't be worry, i'm always here for you if u needed me. I love and I miss you.. there's not a day goes by without thinking about you.
Be happy and bloom :')

2010-06-06T13:40:00.000+09:00

U must have hate me :'(

Everything in INTEC are good so far. Tomorrow will be starting our 'real' hectic schedule.
hmm..I hope everything will be fine.

2010-06-06T00:16:00.000+09:00

Ms. Kim: where did you buy this yebuta(pretty) cloth?? *pointing our baju kurung*
us: *laugh* it's baju kurung.
Ms. Kim: aaaaaahh...bachu kurung??
us: hehe.

SO CUTE >.<

2nd week in INTEC!

2010-06-04T22:29:00.000+09:00

WEE~! We 've started learning korean language(hangeul).
The very first basic sentences our song-seng-nim(teacher) taught us is:
Angyonghaseyo[Hello].
Je yi ru mun RACHEL im ni da. [My name is _______.]
Jo nun MALAYSIA sa ra mim ni da. [I'm from _________.]
Man na so ban gap sum mi da. [ I'm glad to meet you.]

Yeah, we are now learning level 1 Korean language. so,macam tadika lah kami. HAHA. Our text book is full with pictures. and our activity in class is just like primary school students' level. haha. but it's fun and it's exciting learning new languages. Of course, we need to master the basics before going to another higher level right.

ah uhm. Ban gap sum mi da!
anyonghikaseyo! (bye)

2010-06-04T22:27:00.002+09:00

oh shit kerbau. so tong in korean

first week of life in INTEC,UiTM

2010-05-21T12:05:00.000+09:00

Well,basically the first week is where I learn to adapt myself in a new place and try to settle everything down. As long as I know, it's gonna take more than a week to settle down as there many things to do. OK, im gonna cut my long story short, I made friends and here's a picture of us. (some of us).

from left: ralph, me,poh yit, lau,hui sin, jia yi and goh

I miss home, I miss everyone and I'm scared to start studying. TT
The pointer here is very high. 60% is the passing mark. and 80% is only B. 90% is A. and 95% is A+. OMG.
I have to get at least B for every subject in order to get CGPA 3.00 just to be able to fly. I'm scared oh..but it's ok.
Everyone that knows me! I'm sending my regards to you! mmuah! hhehehe..byebye.

leaving again. lumrah hidup

2010-05-15T09:44:00.001+09:00

Going to KL tomorrow. Staying in Cemara College for 9 months. Someone! If u got the means and time,come and visit me :D

CONGRATULATION TO MY GOOD FRIEND-DESIREE ESTELLE for getting BIASISWA YAYASAN SABAH. :) Proud of u bebeh.

And all my fellow friends that are still in Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan. Fighting!! Despite the water problem, don't worry I know it gets to my nerves also sometimes,but just strive and get good results ah! CGPA 4.00!! OK?
P/S. Manatau college d shah alam pun tiada air. hahahaha XD

DOREEN DAYAH, EMILY J , FANNY NG, PATRICIA KOH, NICOLE, ALIF, JOENER, RICHIE, MY ROOMMATE HABSAH n ROSCITA n ANALINA, MY BT FRIENDS AND ALL.
JIAYOU!!
LET'S MEET AGAIN!

Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan. Duration:3 days

2010-05-15T00:39:00.000+09:00

My room! :D

Our study table.

haha XD buat macam rumah sendiri ye.

our bedroom. each room,4 person.

HAHA! My bed is the messiest. mind you,my roommates are all very tidy.

Pemandangan block C dari bilik ku.

Ooops.

Rakan-rakan se-mentor ku. sabri,yusuf,ariff,amy,nita,avelie,ann,didi.

pitit,zati,diana,ijah,sarah,nerry,shanty n scholastica.

Matrikulasi memang fun. Semua boleh tahan kecuali kegawatan sumber air pada tahap kronik.

2010-05-14T18:24:00.000+09:00

Hi! I'm back in KK! XD
Only stayed in KML for 3 and a half days. haha.

2010-05-08T02:42:00.000+09:00

Hey :D just a short update before im leaving to labuan in 4 hours. Fuh, I'm gonna miss my loved ones here in KK especially YOU. :'(
Thanks for the reunion guys (5 A). Too much things to do, and llimited access to internet so, maybe if im lucky i can upload pictures here. But if not,nvm anyway kan?
Honey, i'll miss you,dang! saranghae~ *hearts*! Ewwwh,public confession or wat? haha. Anyways,see you all (my friends) later in matrix :P

GBU always

alalala..*chuckle

2010-05-01T12:51:00.002+09:00

Releasing my kpop addiction :P since my dad is in town..

2010-04-30T17:28:00.003+09:00

Yess! Aku menghabiskan tempoh 3 minggu di sekolah sebagai guru pengganti tidak terlatih. wahahaha XD
Matrix, engkau destinasi ku selepas ini. bah. IHSAN is a cute boy! nyakk..mcm mau cubit2!! Kalau ada adik macam dia kan best.. x)

2010-04-27T17:10:00.000+09:00

uh oh. my hands are sweaty and oily. I can't wait to finish working. ngehehe..

2010-04-23T19:16:00.000+09:00

Hmmh. Im reconsidering my choice. I don't want to end up jobless or getting job that's not worth it. ouch,dilema.

2010-04-22T22:13:00.001+09:00

more than anything, why don't u ask me if im okay?...

2010-04-20T21:49:00.000+09:00

I don't think there's a cure for my dark eye circle. =__="
I tried everything. I slept for 9 hours for 3 months, sama juga teda perubahan. I don't believe in those cosmetics thingy. ok? I think this is a disease. HAHAHAHA. Oh shit.

2010-04-19T20:38:00.000+09:00

The question is, why 'this country'?

Honestly, I watched alot of korean drama....

WHAT??? *Wanna bang my own head to the wall!!* =____="
Way to go rach. Honesty is the best policy?? I doubt it. I think I ruined my own chance.

2010-04-15T18:03:00.002+09:00

Oh how I miss you...

2010-04-14T22:40:00.000+09:00

Wee, suara ku beransur-ansur pulih.:D
I wanna share this special remedy that enable me to talk with sounds coming out of my mouth.

HO YAN HOR HERBAL TEA JENAMA DAUN TEH HERBA + LIMAU + ASAM BOI + SUGAR.
brew your tea for awhile. This is good for buang panas and sakit tekak. =))

Anyways, I'm signing out. Fuh, too tired oh.. nytes luv.

2010-04-13T21:30:00.000+09:00

MANA SUARA KU YANG MERDU PERGI??? OH TIDAK!! bagus kalau merdu...muahaha
now I know how orang bisu felt. I feel so much more luckier.

2010-04-12T22:08:00.000+09:00

suara macam katak, eh tidak! lebih teruk dari katak. ohmo!
first day of work, boleh tahan lah. Tapi banyak masa terluang pun tdk best, terlampau banyak kerja pun tdk best.. Btw fyi, terlampau masa terluang pula jadi cikgu ni ah. PUNYA BORING! haha. but nvm, experience.
TTYL. :)

2010-04-11T19:39:00.000+09:00

effin' sick :(
Of all the days that I stayed at home for a million days, I didn't get sick, urm I did, just once.. Why do I need to get sick when I have a job now??(eseseseh,job konon)
*cuz you're hot and you're cold* demam demam..

I'm glad it's over

2010-04-09T18:07:00.002+09:00

Waiting our turns.

~~As you all know~~, eh, as you all don't know...x)

I went for JPA scholarship interview.

I'm not positive I'll get the scholarship. But at least I went for the interview. =)

At the last minute, I realised I haven't certified my documents. Good thing papa bawa kereta dari LD. Rushed to JPN to get my documents certified. Lepas tu, baru mau happy happy, kereta papa habis battery again. pfft. T.T

We rushed to get a taxi because my interview was supposed to be at 10 am and it's already 9am. Manatau yang 8am belum pun mula. tsk tsk. Just like my SPM, I got into super huge trouble by losing my IC just a day before SPM.

People were cramming their heads with Sejarah's facts but I was rushing here and there to get my IC done and so on. fuh, good thing it all pays off! Praise the Lord. Itu cerita SPM, ini belum tau lagii..

Anyways,

there are a few students who didn't come for the interview oh. sayang seribu sayang..

Didn't take quite much pictures cause I'm so nervous that I didn't have the mood!

After waiting for approximately 2 hours, it's finally my turn. Well, not exactly mine cause there are 4 of us satu kaligus masuk in the room.

Prisca Soo, Mohd Helfi, and Loh(I bet Yap Jia Hui knew him bcuz he's a swimmer too) and me.

So, nervous punya nervous because this is my first experience, last2 it's over. Phew~

Of course firstly, you have to introduce yourself then they ask you if you were a young ambassador, HOW will you show your love for your country in foreign country.

And then, they ask about 'tenaga'. Macam buat karangan, what is the alternative ways to generate energy.

And then they ask why you wanna go to this-this country. Talk about their culture and so on. And then they even ask us to speak foreign language like Korean and Japanese. lol = ="

Lama juga kami di dalam kena interrogate. haha. Almost 1 hour.

I don't think I did well but I tried to give the very best impression of myself and to be as honest as possible.

Well, keputusannya hanya Tuhan yang tahu.. Dapat, baguslah. Tdk dapat, it's a very useful experience. And there is always HOPE. :)

TTYL.. XD

*hop hop*

Imagine-John Lennon.

2010-04-07T23:21:00.000+09:00

I hope the world live as ONE..

Imagine there's no Heaven

It's easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

2010-04-07T22:55:00.001+09:00

Wish me luck! XD

2010-04-07T00:30:00.000+09:00

Oh dang! I'm nervous.. =S

How will it go? What will they ask? How will the surroundings be? Is my documents enough/ok?

Hmmmm..

2010-04-06T18:30:00.001+09:00

OMG! What is technical engineering??? =( =(

2010-04-05T23:25:00.000+09:00

Oh hello. Just another short update.
I cried while watching Master of Study/God of Study tonight. The part where Baekhyeon cried because of his grandma. Oh shit, nasib baik saya cover. HAHAHA.
My sister's hot temper is agitating me. Stop acting like a big bitch okay? grr.
Kesabaran orang pun ada batasan punya bah. Damn. Cukup cukup lah tu acting like a brat. Nobody is going to spoil you forever.

Fuh, I'm so tired.
Lovely Bones was great. But I can't understand why Mr. Harvey is killing girls. Mental illness? girls saja dia pok ni.

sighs. I wished I am at the beach right now. It will be such a great stress reliever. ugh.

2010-04-04T20:30:00.000+09:00

*tut tut..tut tut..tut tut* hang up. *dialled mama's number*
*tut tut..tut tut..* hang up.
*phone rang* Hello?
Hello? APA TU?
Sa mau cakap bye sama papa.
Oh..
^__^

I hope I won't dissapoint you guys when I grow up.

2010-04-04T11:23:00.002+09:00

OMG!
Papa's going to terminate internet connection at home. pfft. SOON.

omygoodness. fake alert. thankgoodness i found u hiding underneath the table.

2010-04-04T01:03:00.000+09:00

Oh thank God! and honey! fake alert.
I thought I lose my IC again for the second time. I was cursing and getting mad at myself pasal careless.BUDU la kau rach. Anyway, I got a promise to keep.

Cody Simpson vs Justin Bieber.

Cody Simpson - 13 yrs old.

Justin Bieber -15 yrs old.

Ok, which one did u guys prefer? Despite the fact that both of them looked like a girl (of coz, if u put them in a wig).

I honestly prefer Justin Bibir. Umur 15 but looked young compare to Cody Simpson yang nampak tua. 13?? Omg, I thought at least 18! Haha. Ok bye.. btw, I'm not a fanatic fan of Justin Bieber. I just listen to some of his song. :)

Happy Easter everyone.

the pictures, i take no credits kay.

2010-04-03T02:49:00.000+09:00

I'm a survivor. test me :P

In few years time, we'll have wrinkles all over even SK-II can't prevent it. even so, I don't mind about it. =)

2010-04-02T21:14:00.000+09:00

Yeah, it's not quite a good day. But anyway, have a blessed upcoming Easter. My brain hurts from all this shouting and keeping my feelings just to myself.

2010-04-02T20:59:00.000+09:00

Setelah beberapa kali drive dan mendengar mamaku shreek 'rachel, raachel, RAACCCHEEEEEELLL!!'
I admit I'm not categorized as a pemandu berhemat. ya,terima kasih. hahahahahaha. ok LAME. =___="

Fann Wong tetap cantik.

All this year, I'm still her fan.

Lalala, bye.

2010-04-01T10:16:00.002+09:00

sigh. i don't know how long i will be around. *turn around like adrian monk in monk and speak like him* I'll miss you.

2010-03-30T11:00:00.000+09:00

I'M SO SCARED.. tsk tsk T____T

boo boo I need you.

God I need you.